NOTHING TO DO IN SWEDEN

To Jane, Burak, Pim and Mattias.
and all those beautiful people who merged into my life in Sweden.
this one is dedicated to you.


Song of the Open Road
By Walt Whitman

1

Afoot and light-hearted I take to the open road,
Healthy, free, the world before me,
The long brown path before me leading wherever I choose.

Henceforth I ask not good-fortune, I myself am good-fortune,
Henceforth I whimper no more, postpone no more, need nothing,
Done with indoor complaints, libraries, querulous criticisms,
Strong and content I travel the open road.

The earth, that is sufficient,
I do not want the constellations any nearer,
I know they are very well where they are,
I know they suffice for those who belong to them.

(Still here I carry my old delicious burdens,
I carry them, men and women, I carry them with me wherever I go,
I swear it is impossible for me to get rid of them,
I am fill'd with them, and I will fill them in return.)

yeni bir bileklikle yeni bir donem basladı. (şükela)

bu blog da aslında cok zaman once zaman asimina ugradı. "nothing to do in sweden" cumlesinin artık ironik oldugu noktada bu blog anlamını yitirdi. tam olarak o noktada herseyi ozlemeyi birakip yasamaya basladigim noktadir.

ama bu vakitde baska seyleri ozlemek. yenilerin eski olmasi, köklerinin uzamasi. artık sökmesi cok zor olması.

özledigim cok kisi ve sey olmakla beraber burası hala agir basmakta. donmek istemiyorum. manasız geliyor. cayira salinmis suursuz bir koyun olmaya donmek istemiyorum. ne yaparim ne ederim bilemiyorum. olasilikların varlıgını farketmek. ben bir daha nasil aynı olabilirim ki.





"All i know for now is, a lot has changed…"

hi from cansu tastan on Vimeo.

For my best friend Merve, happy birthday from Sweden


in order of appearance

Evgenia Yuditskaya
Cansu Tastan
Mattias Berglund
Rininta Ramadhani Heruwanto
Burak Tunca
Priscilla Wan
Victoria Traverso
Pim Koykitcharoen
Champ Nithiwat


thanks to all of you guys.
and special thanks to Mattias


sponsored by Västmanlands Lokaltrafik and MDH :F

"...you head back home afterwards and you realize that everything is exactly the same as it was when you left. Yet, inside us everything has changed..."





Jane's kitchen. with Burak

can’t believe I’m here and that I don’t fear tomorrow anymore.
I think we might be headed for a great time.
So look at me, tell me what you see and give me a left cheek kiss.
If this is not called happiness and don’t know what it is.
So take a deep breath, tell me what you smell.
I smell a good time in my life.
If this is not called happiness and don’t know what it is.